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    The Rise of the Feminine and the next stage of my spiritual journey

    Hello beautiful people at the new Vilina Christoph site! You can read my earlier announcement here. You might’ve noticed that I haven’t posted for the last couple of months. Truth is that this next stage of my spiritual journey has been brewing and hatching. In particular, I moved my blog over from the cosy and automated world of WordPress.com to an independents host which gives me more freedom. The move was ripe since I’ve been planning it for months and just last week it was the right time for that change. Your experience as a reader won’t change but if you’ve been following my journey you will notice some conceptual changes at…

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I am Vilina Christoph and I write about my journey of healing and recovery from childhood trauma and abuse. I use words to transmute the pain and adversity into fuel for growth and empowerment. I believe we have the power to heal ourselves and transform our lives from within. I am passionate about helping women heal, grow and feel empowered to build and live a full authentic life.

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  • Here is a gentle reminder and a loving note for You from your Loving Self 💕 Have a gorgeous weekend! .. Via @gratefulness.me
  • Hey everyone, it's been almost a month since my last post so I thought I'd better make an appearance. I'm still here and haven't abandoned my account. The truth is that I had a real busy and tough time the past... well, month and a half to be exact. On Wednesday I had a mini breakdown and I was quite close to a burnout. But I'm better after I had some long sleep last night and couple of naps the last two days. .. We've moved apartment (and neighbourhood), the "usual" school troubles are back, son and I were sick, and I've had to do with various admin bits, plus a job offer. Does life just happens all at once, all of a sudden or is it just me? Honestly, I had to draw many conclusions and take into account the ways in which I act. I believe there are ways to achieve what we want without exhausting ourselves fully and I'm learning to be smarter in the future. Fact is that things DO happen the way we want but also we have to pay the price, if we're not smart. .. So that was a quick hello from me 👋😊 How have you been? ~V. ❤️
  • Oh Boy! The past three weeks have officially been the most intense for the whole year. But today is my birthday and I feel grateful for everything in my life and for life itself. I'm grateful for the people who appreciate me, who love me, who think of me. We don't need much in life at all. Sometimes a good book and a glass of colourful drink (especially when they colour match) is what makes us take a deep bow. Thank You Life ❤️
  • 💔 GRIEF (AGAIN) 💔 I want to share a bit about my experience of grief and how essential the process of grieving is. • I had wonderful time while on holidays but on some days I felt excruciating sadness and pain, aka grief. Of course, my first thoughts, product of my critical voice, were why now, why again, have I not cried enough already, have I not shed the pain yet, why do I still feel like this?... I really wish I was "over it" but trauma and healing are two unpredictable and uncontrollable experiences. You HAVE TO SURRENDER to the feelings. • On the other hand, those very feelings and emotions are the ones that will carry you over and heal you eventually. The more you try to suppress them, the more persistent they will be. I had to overcome the guilt and shame of still "feeling like this" and accept things as they are. I still feel pain, I still hurt, I'm still carrying trauma. I had to allow for the process and let go of control. • It was difficult to let myself be seen like this, to drop the guard and the walls of protection and strength, to be vulnerable and feel exposed. But a part of me needed this, the part of me that's still hurting. That part needs validation and acknowledgement, it needs me to accept and allow it fully. If it needs to cry - it needs to cry and I need to allow it. If it needs to feel sad - it needs it and I need to allow it. • This is the process of true grieving. My inner child needs me and I need to grief for everything I've missed on as a child. Moving forward won't happen if I don't let the grieving to occur, no matter how much and how long it takes. There's no other way forward than acknowledging your pain and feeling all the feelings of grief. • Do you resonate? ❤ • 📷 @nymphana_ ✌
  • Back from holidays now and settling in the city again while prepping for the school year to begin. Every time I take a break from social media it makes me think what I really want to do with my account. And, first, I felt I wanted to thank everyone who's sticking around when I'm not posting regularly and who's here and appreciating the content. I'm still on this journey of healing and I will continue sharing valuable information that I've found helpful. I want the healing of our traumas to become a revolutionary movement and I believe it slowly is. So many of us are waking up and willing to transform and transmute their pain, not just pass it on. I'm excited to be here, to live now and be a part of a global community of (self) healers. 💕 To you, to us - onwards! V. 💋
  • A piece of paradise in the northeast of Bulgaria 🏡 We're staying here with the fam till the end of the week, surrounded by farmlands and beaches. This land is one of the very few that have not been touched by developers and builders. In moments and places like this I'm proud to call myself Bulgarian because our land is magical and special, where the money thirst hasn't reached yet. Wishing you all a beautiful week, find some magic for yourselves and soak it up 🌞
  • Such a great post by Nicole @the.holistic.psychologist 🙏🙏🙏 • You not only survived in environments, you adapted to them. From parents who couldn’t be what you needed, to bullying, to pains that your tiny self couldn’t process. You’re still here. Never forget those past versions of yourself. You carry them with you, and they’re a consistent reminder of your resilience. Because you follow this account, you’ve chosen to go beyond the survivor. You’ve made a choice to heal. This is the most courageous thing a person can do in their lifetime. No other achievement comes close. Contrary to what our deeply confused culture continues to preach. I was the child hiding under tables. Afraid of anyone even coming into my house. At bedtime came night terrors— my parents dying of someone breaking in. My mother, carrying her own unresolved trauma, was unable to bond with me. And, in the alchemy that is the human experience, this would lead me to my life’s work. Trust the healing process. You’ll see just how much of your own suffering you create. You’ll learn that the biggest thing in your way is you and your self limiting beliefs. And that’s a good thing because YOU are the only thing you’ll ever be able to change in this life. Read that line again. Resist the ego asking “how much longer” or “when will I know it’s over?” With time you’ll understand the process itself is teaching you patience. It’s teaching you surrender. It’s teaching you how to connect to the most important voice you needed to disconnect from to survive: your own. Take a moment of gratitude below and acknowledge just how far you’ve actually come. Incase you haven’t been told recently, you are a warrior. I see you #selfhealers • Reposted from @the.holistic.psychologist
  • Playing with the foliage in my father's garden 🌿 We arrived today at his house with my son to spend a few days before heading to the seaside. I was getting a bit edgy after spending two and a half hot summer months in the city. It was good but it was time for a move before we plunge into school season in September. • Happy Full Moon in Aquarius tomorrow! Wish me fun on my travels, I'll be back in about 10 days 🌴🏖🌴
  • Sometimes I want to be already "healed", I want to feel "ready", I want to be doing everything I've been wanting to be doing. I feel impatient and I want to be "there" already. • However, I've learned to recognise that that's when my ego has takes up the driving seat. But my higher self knows that all that is an illusion. • The healing journey is a process, and not a linear one. Being healed isn't an end destination, it's a never-ending story, we wouldn't be here on earth otherwise. • Readiness is just a way of fooling ourselves that we can't have what we want right now. It's a way of avoiding fear and discomfort. But there is no growth without pain. • This is a reminder to take a step at a time, give thanks for your process and to remember to stop from time to time and enjoy the view from the path you're on. 💚🌿💚
  • ⚡ HIGH STANDARDS AND CRITICALNESS ⚡ • Another core belief/pattern from Schema Therapy is Relentless Standards and Hypercriticalness. It's one that I have and struggle with on daily basis. • In essence, the high standards we have towards ourselves and others usually serve as a compensation for the feeling of low self-worth. The relentless striving to be “perfect” is a way to soothe our feelings of shame, to avoid feeling rejected, or because of fear of failure. Another reason is that we could’ve grown up with critical, perfectionistic parents and that’s what we’ve learned and internalised. • Our high standards can come up as extreme orderliness (being pedantic), orientation towards achieving goals (being a workaholic), or seeking status (external recognition). These different behaviours compensate for different fears we might have. • The truth is that keeping up high standards can come at an extremely high price - most of our energy goes in keeping them and our health and relationships can suffer. Often we feel pressured and burdened by the weight and impossibleness of those standards. • I’ve noticed for myself that I can’t say “I don’t know” - I feel an internal obligation that I have to have the answers. To not know would mean that I’m less of a person, that I’m a failure, or not good enough. But the responsibility I feel is too great and the weight is crushing me. • High standards sap the energy, joy, pleasure, and spontaneity of life. You may achieve perfection according to your high standards but you will not have anything left in you to enjoy it. In fact, you’ll most likely find the next goal and work relentlessly towards that. But you can heal and stop the cycle. • Do you relate? How do you cope with your standards? 💚
  • 🍁 MY EXPERIENCE WITH EMDR 🍁 • The experience of EMDR is difficult to describe with words - it happens on a deep emotional level and words are not even necessary during the process. But I found it very gentle even though it could bring you to the deepest depths of your inner world. • That’s what happened to me - all the three sessions I’ve had so far took me to places I’ve not expected and even thought they exist. As a rule, you start working with a memory you have and then you follow the feelings, thoughts and sensations you feel with your body and mind. You continue following the trail until you usually come across the root, as I see it. • During my second session, I’ve discovered an emotional “tumour” in my chest area and I figured this was all the pain I’ve felt during my childhood years of emotional deprivation and neglect, stored within my body and around my heart. During the last session, towards the end, I found myself in a desert, which I figured was symbolic of how alone and lost I’ve felt as a child. • It was all very powerful and emotional. And even though it is difficult to confront these suppressed feelings, after that we could release the stuck emotions and integrate those painful memories. They become part of our story but no longer have an emotional hold over our present lives. • I’m looking forward to more EMDR sessions with my therapist and I can recommend it to everyone who’s suffered trauma in the past. I’ve read that it’s particularly helpful with a single event traumas and PTSD. Childhood trauma and abuse (and Complex PTSD) could be trickier and you may need to combine more that one healing approach. So far I’m grateful I’ve found EMDR and that it’s helping me with my childhood trauma. We also work with Schema during my therapy. • Have you tried EMDR? What's your experience with it? 🍁
  • I've had my third EMDR session and I'm amazed by its power in assisting healing from trauma. I've selected a few quotes from "The Body Keeps The Score" by Bessel van der Kolk @thebodykeepsthescore • Like many scientific advances, EMDR originated with a chance observation. One day in 1987 psychologist Francine Shapiro was walking through a park, preoccupied with some painful memories, when she noticed that rapid eye movements produced a dramatic relief from her distress.[..]Initially skeptical about her observation she subjected her method to years of experimentation and research, gradually building it into a standardized procedure that could be taught and tested in controlled studies. • EMDR loosens up something in the mind/brain that gives people rapid access to loosely associated memories and images from their past. This seems to help them put the traumatic experience into a larger context or perspective. • People may be able to heal from trauma without talking about it. EMDR enables them to observe their experiences in a new way, without verbal give-and-take with another person. EMDR can help even if the patient and the therapist do not have a trusting relationship. This was particularly intriguing because trauma, understandably, rarely leaves people with an open, trusting heart. • In contrast, EMDR, as well as the treatments discussed in subsequent chapters—internal family systems, yoga, neurofeedback, psychomotor therapy, and theater—focus not only on regulating the intense memories activated by trauma but also on restoring a sense of agency, engagement, and commitment through ownership of body and mind. • As we’ve seen, traumatic memories persist as split-off, unmodified images, sensations, and feelings. To my mind the most remarkable feature of EMDR is its apparent capacity to activate a series of unsought and seemingly unrelated sensations, emotions, images, and thoughts in conjunction with the original memory. This way of reassembling old information into new packages may be just the way we integrate ordinary, nontraumatic day-to-day experiences. 💚

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  • Here is a gentle reminder and a loving note for You from your Loving Self 💕 Have a gorgeous weekend! .. Via @gratefulness.me
  • Hey everyone, it's been almost a month since my last post so I thought I'd better make an appearance. I'm still here and haven't abandoned my account. The truth is that I had a real busy and tough time the past... well, month and a half to be exact. On Wednesday I had a mini breakdown and I was quite close to a burnout. But I'm better after I had some long sleep last night and couple of naps the last two days. .. We've moved apartment (and neighbourhood), the "usual" school troubles are back, son and I were sick, and I've had to do with various admin bits, plus a job offer. Does life just happens all at once, all of a sudden or is it just me? Honestly, I had to draw many conclusions and take into account the ways in which I act. I believe there are ways to achieve what we want without exhausting ourselves fully and I'm learning to be smarter in the future. Fact is that things DO happen the way we want but also we have to pay the price, if we're not smart. .. So that was a quick hello from me 👋😊 How have you been? ~V. ❤️
  • Oh Boy! The past three weeks have officially been the most intense for the whole year. But today is my birthday and I feel grateful for everything in my life and for life itself. I'm grateful for the people who appreciate me, who love me, who think of me. We don't need much in life at all. Sometimes a good book and a glass of colourful drink (especially when they colour match) is what makes us take a deep bow. Thank You Life ❤️
  • 💔 GRIEF (AGAIN) 💔 I want to share a bit about my experience of grief and how essential the process of grieving is. • I had wonderful time while on holidays but on some days I felt excruciating sadness and pain, aka grief. Of course, my first thoughts, product of my critical voice, were why now, why again, have I not cried enough already, have I not shed the pain yet, why do I still feel like this?... I really wish I was "over it" but trauma and healing are two unpredictable and uncontrollable experiences. You HAVE TO SURRENDER to the feelings. • On the other hand, those very feelings and emotions are the ones that will carry you over and heal you eventually. The more you try to suppress them, the more persistent they will be. I had to overcome the guilt and shame of still "feeling like this" and accept things as they are. I still feel pain, I still hurt, I'm still carrying trauma. I had to allow for the process and let go of control. • It was difficult to let myself be seen like this, to drop the guard and the walls of protection and strength, to be vulnerable and feel exposed. But a part of me needed this, the part of me that's still hurting. That part needs validation and acknowledgement, it needs me to accept and allow it fully. If it needs to cry - it needs to cry and I need to allow it. If it needs to feel sad - it needs it and I need to allow it. • This is the process of true grieving. My inner child needs me and I need to grief for everything I've missed on as a child. Moving forward won't happen if I don't let the grieving to occur, no matter how much and how long it takes. There's no other way forward than acknowledging your pain and feeling all the feelings of grief. • Do you resonate? ❤ • 📷 @nymphana_ ✌
  • Back from holidays now and settling in the city again while prepping for the school year to begin. Every time I take a break from social media it makes me think what I really want to do with my account. And, first, I felt I wanted to thank everyone who's sticking around when I'm not posting regularly and who's here and appreciating the content. I'm still on this journey of healing and I will continue sharing valuable information that I've found helpful. I want the healing of our traumas to become a revolutionary movement and I believe it slowly is. So many of us are waking up and willing to transform and transmute their pain, not just pass it on. I'm excited to be here, to live now and be a part of a global community of (self) healers. 💕 To you, to us - onwards! V. 💋
  • A piece of paradise in the northeast of Bulgaria 🏡 We're staying here with the fam till the end of the week, surrounded by farmlands and beaches. This land is one of the very few that have not been touched by developers and builders. In moments and places like this I'm proud to call myself Bulgarian because our land is magical and special, where the money thirst hasn't reached yet. Wishing you all a beautiful week, find some magic for yourselves and soak it up 🌞
  • Such a great post by Nicole @the.holistic.psychologist 🙏🙏🙏 • You not only survived in environments, you adapted to them. From parents who couldn’t be what you needed, to bullying, to pains that your tiny self couldn’t process. You’re still here. Never forget those past versions of yourself. You carry them with you, and they’re a consistent reminder of your resilience. Because you follow this account, you’ve chosen to go beyond the survivor. You’ve made a choice to heal. This is the most courageous thing a person can do in their lifetime. No other achievement comes close. Contrary to what our deeply confused culture continues to preach. I was the child hiding under tables. Afraid of anyone even coming into my house. At bedtime came night terrors— my parents dying of someone breaking in. My mother, carrying her own unresolved trauma, was unable to bond with me. And, in the alchemy that is the human experience, this would lead me to my life’s work. Trust the healing process. You’ll see just how much of your own suffering you create. You’ll learn that the biggest thing in your way is you and your self limiting beliefs. And that’s a good thing because YOU are the only thing you’ll ever be able to change in this life. Read that line again. Resist the ego asking “how much longer” or “when will I know it’s over?” With time you’ll understand the process itself is teaching you patience. It’s teaching you surrender. It’s teaching you how to connect to the most important voice you needed to disconnect from to survive: your own. Take a moment of gratitude below and acknowledge just how far you’ve actually come. Incase you haven’t been told recently, you are a warrior. I see you #selfhealers • Reposted from @the.holistic.psychologist
  • Playing with the foliage in my father's garden 🌿 We arrived today at his house with my son to spend a few days before heading to the seaside. I was getting a bit edgy after spending two and a half hot summer months in the city. It was good but it was time for a move before we plunge into school season in September. • Happy Full Moon in Aquarius tomorrow! Wish me fun on my travels, I'll be back in about 10 days 🌴🏖🌴

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