Becoming our true selves
I had a revelation – I had put my life on pause. About 3 years ago I unconsciously put my own life on hold. What happened at that time is that I moved in with my partner and we had a baby. Life drastically changed as I moved out of my flat in Dublin city and moved in a quieter area nearby; I said goodbye to single life living with my best friend and embraced sharing a relationship and a 3 bedroom house with my boyfriend. I also lost my job and not long after that we got pregnant. It was a life overhaul. I switched identities over a few months. Consciously…
The beginning of a new journey: embracing minimalism
Last time I finished with the promise to tell you what little steps I’ve made recently. What these new breaths of life were inspired by? But first, a teeny bit of a preface. I’ve always been quite organized and orderly with my surroundings. I love clean surfaces and tidy spaces. I’m a fan of decluttering! I didn’t realise this trait in me until I moved in with my partner in our new place a few years ago. The truth is, though, that this place isn’t ours, it’s my partner’s grant aunt’s place, and we’re taking care of it while she’s slowly winding down in a nursing home. We are immensely grateful…
Crisis as a call for change and how to integrate it in your life
“Crisis is a call for change and when it comes in your life, make sure you give yourself the necessary time to understand its full meaning. Crisis gives you the opportunity to find the hidden gold in your shadow.” I am just coming out of a personal crisis which started a few months ago and was triggered by the death of my sister. This loss followed the death of our mother 5 years earlier. Two people of my 4-member family are now forever gone from my present life. They live in my past and, perhaps, our souls will meet again in the future beyond. I dedicate my writing work to…
Autumn and the renewal of the soul: on priorities, anxiety and social media
It is autumn out there. I have often wondered which season I like better – spring or autumn. In my home country Bulgaria every season is beautifully defined and we’ve got all four of them there. In my country of living Ireland we don’t always get all the seasons throughout the year but we can definitely get all of them in a single day! After being in Ireland for 8 years I have come to resent the summers and absolutely love the autumns. Summers often turn out cold and grey, and disappointing. On the other hand, autumns are warm, sunny and gorgeously colourful. Now I know autumn is my…
The death of the self: on toddler troubles, being human and name change
Sounds like an absurd combination of things and what does it have to do with the self? So here’s what happened last week – a mush of emotional turmoil, child’s excrement and personal transformation. My 2 1/2 year-old son Sylvian woke up in the middle of the night with a dreadful cough. He was wheezing and it sounded like he was barely able to breathe. I’ve never heard him like that, it sounded like he was suffocating. Together with my partner we wondered shall we go to the Emergency department. A short while later my son went back to sleep, still wheezing but at least able to breathe. In the morning…
The death of the Ego
I will pick up from the last note in my previous post. Coming out from a major life crisis takes a while. In fact I don’t think you are ever to come out of it in one piece. You do restore some of your wholeness but you are never the same – a part of you is dead. And this is good. But you don’t quite feel cheerful about it – you do need to mourn the loss of that part of yourself and that previous you. And it is OK to mourn for a while. But it is not OK to get stuck there. And here comes another…
