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  • How my son starting school is helping me heal trauma image
    Trauma Healing

    How my son starting school is helping me heal trauma

    4th December 2019 /

    For the last more than three months now I’ve been through a whirlwind of a storm. I’ve never thought that my son staring school will bring so much up. More and more I realise how isolated I’ve been and how much I’ve lost contact with the outside world. More accurately, I’ve suspected that but the clash of reentering seems to be taking me much more effort and costing me much more energy than I’ve ever imagined. I know there are many reasons for this – I am and always have been a very sensitive person and being away from work for 8 years now has put me in a very…

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    Reclaiming our wholeness

    17th March 2016
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    Working with the inner child: illuminations and release

    1st June 2017
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    A turning point on my healing journey – experiencing an emotional flashback and remembering my past

    1st March 2020
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    Trauma Healing

    How trauma and codependency in childhood can cause toxic mommy guilt

    6th November 2018 /

    I often question why I feel so much guilt as a mother towards my little boy. It’s not only crippling my own experience of being a mother but also sending inaccurate messages to my son which shape the way he views himself and the world. I feel stricken with guilt every time I feel the effects of my trauma. I blame myself for not being able to shake off the sadness or depression I feel, for the anger that sometimes I can’t hold or the negativity that my critical mind is keeping me a captive to. I feel shame every time I’m not at my best for letting my son down. When…

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    My dance with astrology: on anger, revolutionaries and colouring

    3rd December 2015
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    Happy where I am

    13th September 2017
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    A hopeful start and a pat on the back

    17th January 2016
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    Trauma Healing

    The shame around being a “bad mother”

    2nd November 2018 /

    Sometimes I resent being a mother. That is not to say that I don’t love my child. Unlike my mother and some mothers who can’t love, I do love my son. With all my heart and soul, always and forever. I believe all mothers have moments when they resent motherhood. I believe that the contemporary expectation to be a non-stop happy and vibrant mother is not only unrealistic, it’s also severely shaming and stigmatising. It makes natural temporary feelings of dissatisfaction or unfulfillment fester into gnawing guilt. That makes me think how terribly unprepared and largely delusional so many mothers enter into motherhood, including me. I wanted my child with…

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    Waving goodbye to the past

    10th January 2018
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    To my dear child

    4th September 2017
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    Childhood emotional neglect – the hidden root of my pain

    18th July 2019
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    The Empowered Women Series

    Interview with Elizabeth Johnsen: woman and mother on a path of healing and transformation

    29th January 2018 /

    In 2015 Elizabeth contacted me through my blog – she was the very first person to reach out in such a way. Quickly we felt a much deeper connection which grew into a friendship. Even though we’ve never met in person I feel we’ve known each other for lifetimes. I know Elizabeth has been through some hard times recently and it was painful to witness her journey “from afar” but nevertheless, I never stopped feeling for her. I’m happy to see and say that she has overcome the darkness. Here are Elizabeth’s own words: Tell us a little bit about your life journey. I was raised in New Zealand by…

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    Interview with Jonelle du Pont: blogger and writer at Tyranny of Pink

    26th July 2017
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    Interview with Kathy Garland: blogger, writer and inspirational author at Kwoted

    27th June 2018
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    Interview with Amie Johnson: Trauma survivor and a host of The HeART of Healing podcast

    22nd March 2019
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    Trauma Healing

    Sacred Mothering: how to be a soulful mother on a spiritual path

    23rd November 2017 /

    For a long time I’ve lived two separate lives – a life of an unfolding spiritual journey and purpose and a life as an everyday mother, partner and housewife. The first one happens mostly within me and I get to share it here with you, my readers and online friends, but I don’t express much outwardly in my day-to-day doings. The second life happens in the hours when I’m not working on myself or writing down my discoveries and realisations – it happens when I pick up my son from kindergarten and we spend the afternoons together outside or at home. Those two lives sometimes clash with each other and…

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    Working with the inner child: illuminations and release

    1st June 2017
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    On gratitude

    20th December 2015
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    Follow your feelings

    11th September 2017
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    Trauma Healing

    Motherhood and enjoying the present moment

    2nd October 2017 /

    For a first time in my life I feel like I’m enjoying being a mother and my relationship with my son. I was too naive and maybe somewhat young when I became a mother. We’ve only been together with my partner for an year when I got pregnant. But we said yes to it, yes to all this family-making, children-raising thing. And it was good for a while. But soon it became clear that this isn’t what I thought it would be. It soon became clear that instead of building a family, there was a wall being built between me and everything around me. And I closed down and shut…

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    Childhood emotional neglect – the hidden root of my pain

    18th July 2019

    Eclipse season, covid and hitting rock bottom

    17th November 2022
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    Working with the moon, its energy and phases

    19th March 2018
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    Trauma Healing

    To my dear child

    4th September 2017 /

    I thought I was coping with my reality until I realised that I was just trying to escape from it. The key to enjoying my life is to actually embrace it, as it is. I was running away from you, thinking you were the problem. When in fact, you are the one who will hold me through the problem. Regardless of everything else, I have the greatest gift of life  – you, my child. My son – my mirror, my reflection. All my pain projected onto you. I called you many things – all projections of what I’ve been hurting from in my life and relationships. My dear child, you’re…

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    Start of the school year and the nervous system

    8th September 2022
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    A strange day… in a beautiful and vulnerable way

    7th March 2017
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    How my son starting school is helping me heal trauma

    4th December 2019
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    Trauma Healing

    On grief: the missing relationship with the mother

    19th May 2016 /

    If you ask me how my life has been the last couple of years, I probably wouldn’t say it has been full of grief. It would be one of the first things to cross my mind but I wouldn’t say it. I would probably divert to being a mom and looking after a household, which is true but it’s only half of my world. The grief and everything it brings – I’ve put aside in the back pocket of my mind. It wasn’t until I started listening to the audiobook Wild: From Lost to Found on the Pacific Crest Trail by Cheryl Strayed, that I felt how much grief I still carry in me.…

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    The importance of keeping the connection with yourself

    25th July 2021
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    Moving towards joy

    7th September 2017
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    Accepting our shadow as a way back to wholeness

    6th June 2018
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    Trauma Healing

    Year 2015: what it brought to my family and what it taught me

    16th December 2015 /

    I am going to talk to my son’s teacher tomorrow. My son, Sylvian, is nearly 3 years old and he is going to a Montessori preschool. I prefer to call it just “school” and the people taking care of him there – teachers.I want to talk to her, I will call her Jackie, and give her some background information. But let me give you some information about my son first. He started at this school in late September and he’s going 5 mornings a week for 3 hours. At the beginning he was thrilled to go there. It was a new place that’s not home and is full of toys…

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    Autumn and the renewal of the soul: on priorities, anxiety and social media

    11th November 2015
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    My Pain is My Power

    17th June 2019
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    How to work with difficult feelings

    20th March 2017
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I am Vilina Christoph and I write about my journey of healing from childhood trauma and emotional neglect. I use words to transmute the pain from the adverse experiences into fuel for growth and empowerment. I believe we have the ability to heal ourselves and transform our lives from within. I am passionate about helping others heal and grow to become their authentic selves and create an abundant life.

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