To my dear child

I thought I was coping with my reality until I realised that I was just trying to escape from it.

The key to enjoying my life is to actually embrace it, as it is.

I was running away from you, thinking you were the problem. When in fact, you are the one who will hold me through the problem.

Regardless of everything else, I have the greatest gift of life  – you, my child.

My son – my mirror, my reflection. All my pain projected onto you. I called you many things – all projections of what I’ve been hurting from in my life and relationships.

My dear child, you’re the greatest gift and I thank you for showing me all this. You are also the cure for my pain and I’m infinitely grateful for you.

Thank you and I am sorry you had to take on this role but without you I wouldn’t be able to see all this.

I’ve been looking elsewhere all this time to find a solution, thinking you are the problem. I’ve been so shortsighted.

But please forgive me, I was in a lot of pain. I couldn’t see beyond it because I was drowning in it.

But you saved me. And I thank you, my dear soul, for choosing to help me come out of the darkness.