The New 2016 Year is here! Happy new beginnings to all!
Before I start fully focusing on what’s coming this year I’d like to reflect on what was achieved and accomplished during 2015.
I was scribbling a draft on December 31st and finished it at 11:49 pm. I was quick to go to bed, where my son and partner were already asleep, before it was New Year because I didn’t want to greet it on my own. The draft was a sort of a painfully honest personal rant. I wrote it down for myself and part of it included some very practical resolutions we’ve made in our household (understand: laundry issues). And some other big ideas and plans (understand: spending this summer in my home country Bulgaria).
Before I consider rewriting it I’d like to have another go at the past year and look at it through more positive lens. What also inspired me was the blog post Resolutely Clear, I’d love it if you to read it. This part gave me the shivers:
Our sights are often set upon the next peak before we fully appreciate how far we’ve come. Now is a great time to pause and reflect with gratitude for what is in our wake.
I fully agree and I’m so glad I was reminded. Indeed we tend to skip over to the next thing so quickly, hoping that the new something will bring us more joy. Without even considering the hard work we’ve done so far. Not to mention giving ourselves some credit.
At least I do it so painfully often.
This also ties in with another idea which revolves around the headline of my blog – learning to find joy in life. I have discovered for myself that when I embark on a new journey, once I set off – the initial magic and enthusiasm evaporates. For example, I often struggle with this blog and the writing process. I get super inspired by an idea but once I roll up my sleeves, it’s more of a chore.
It’s hard to explain but what I’ve found is that my mind somehow quickly demystifies what I’m doing and takes the joy away. I’ve always struggled with finding joy so that’s why I set up this blog – as a mission to demystify the workings of my mind.
I’ve decided to find a way to train my mind and create a practices in which way I stay present and enjoy the moment of now.
But before we all move on to conquering new peaks, I’d like to invite you to slow down and reflect on your victories one last time.
Here it goes:
In 2015 my family shrank in size but my soul grew immensely
I’ve supported my partner on his way to becoming financially independent
I’ve supported my son in growing up to be an independent and loving individual
I’ve supported my sister in her battle with cancer
I’ve supported my father in his 24/7 caring for my sister
I’ve been a building block and a foundation. I’ve sacrificed my own desires and needs but that has also motivated me to set new goals of getting in touch with my own feelings and taking care of myself.
I’ve sacrificed relationships with friends and extended family to focus all of my efforts on the immediate members of my family and those mostly in need. But that has also motivated me to reclaim these lost connections with my friends and homeland . And to open up for new relationships in my life.
My wishlist for the new year:
I want to learn to ask for help when I need it and offer support when I’m not asked for it
I want to learn to say thanks in a meaningful way and accept gestures and help without feeling an obligation to repay
I am grateful to myself for enduring and being stronger than ever and rising after each fall
I am grateful for all the support I have received
I am grateful to the gods, spirits, guides, helpers, and all spiritual beings
I am grateful to all the family around me that have worked hard to help me not fall apart
I am grateful to all friends who, even far away, have not forgotten me and kept me in their thoughts and hearts – You’re all in my heart <3
On a more practical level in 2015:
I’ve started to drive
I’ve started to exercise
I’ve started to meditate
I’ve started to write again
In review the last years:
I’m in Ireland for 8 years
Communicating every day in a non-native language
Raising a child for a 3rd year
Taking care of a household for more than 3 years
Holding a family together
Spent 5 Christmas holidays with the 2 families of my partner, who amount to 30 people or more (yes, this is a great achievement for me!)
Being separated from my family of origin, not able to see them very often due to financial difficulties and the poor health of my sister
A bout of depression this summer, managed to kick myself back out of it and started a spiritual journey of getting to know myself better
Starting out a translation business last year with a few good jobs; unfortunately this is dying out now but I’m ready to release it and not see it as a failure
Had billions of realisations…
Still kept going and still haven’t lost fate…
And I’m hopeful and I know next year will be a year of changes – POSITIVE CHANGES
What are your little (and big) victories? Do you find it hard to focus on your achievements and instead jumping off to the next thing? Share in the comments!0