The power is within you
Last month was an emotional rollercoaster. And I know I say that more often than not. But I won’t be able to describe it any other way. Now, I have learned that what really matters is how you respond to the adversity, what you do with your feelings, what you make out of your experiences. It’s probably true that life is just going to keep throwing sour lemons or rotten tomatoes or whatever at us. But what counts is how we take that and what we make of it. “Are you going to drink the lemon juice or are you going to make some lemonade?” You see, the power is…
The hidden gift in every difficulty
It’s been a whirlwind of last and again I’ll have to say, It’s been a while, I’ve missed you and I’ve missed writing. My family and I had to move house, yet again. We’ve arrived in Bulgaria a little more than 7 month ago. Late in February we found an apartment in Sofia – we were delighted with the place and we were ready to start settling in and go on with our lives. Work for my partner, kindergarten for our son, and more time to write for me. And things indeed were settling, we were getting the hang of it. The transport, the shops, the parks, the city life,…
Embracing our (complex) human nature
Hey everyone, I’ve missed you! I often find myself distracted in many ways in life. Then I start feeling very anxious and then I realise it often is because I haven’t written in a while. (I know I’ve said that before.) The thing is that when we’re by ourselves, not really doing anything creative, our minds can run wild. It’s like our minds are looking hard to find something to do and when we’re not giving them that, they starts going rampant in our heads. Do you feel that sometimes? I can’t pin point why this is happening, why we still procrastinate, even when we know the process quite well.…
Working with the inner child: illuminations and release
I’m nearly finished with my Inner Child Therapy. It’s been more than 10 weeks now and it’s been illuminating. It wasn’t as scary and traumatic as I was picturing it but it has been eye-opening and sometimes heart-breaking. I’ve had numerous “aha” moments, things I would’ve probably never known haven’t I done the work. In a way my realisations were more simple, and perhaps even quite common, than I have expected. Nevertheless, it’s been mind-boggling. The two main themes in terms of what I received or didn’t receive from my parents are described below. From my father: My father was busy and occupied with his work. His work was his…
On femininity: breathwork exercise and a mother’s message
A few sessions ago during my Inner Child Therapy we did a breathwork exercise. It wasn’t exactly what I was thinking it would be at the beginning. I thought it would be more of a shamanic breathwork – quickened breathing that makes you lightheaded and you go into a state of trance. What we did was different – the breathing wasn’t too fast but we kept it going for about 40 minutes at least, I was also lying on the ground and first I was doing a specific movement with my back/hips and then with my legs. It appeared that this is actually a tantric practice. But it didn’t have anything to…
Identifying triggers and breaking free from the past
I’m realising I’ve been a prisoner of my past. More or less, everyone of us is. Until the time we decide we’re not and we break free. I am seeing how experiences from my past determine the way I act on daily basis, or more accurately – re-act. Doing the inner child work opens a lot of closed doors – you start seeing and understanding why and how. You see your present self as a projection of your past – you’re nothing more but a shadow of a past self but you’re not your self. But it’s not really meant to be like this. Although we are connected to our…
A solo adventure and a glance into a past life
Over the weekend I went to an event. It was one of these “random” things you find knowing they have showed up to you for a reason. It consisted of a talk and a group meditation led by a professional regressionist. We discussed the subjects of regression, past lives, reincarnations, ego, soul evolution, and more. After that we did a 40 minute meditation bringing us back to a past life. First of all, I really was scared of going by myself. First I got a friend of mine to join but then she cancelled. I knew I had to do this, not giving up on the opportunity, by myself. These…
On support and being in the flow
Lately, I’ve been thinking about support A LOT. I’ve been thinking about having a support system and how to build one. How to go about it? I’m realising this is something missing from my life. I do have support in general but I don’t have any support on real actual level – I still feel pretty on my own most of the time. I’ve been enjoying connecting with fellow bloggers and I have to say that I do feel part of a small community here on WordPress. Recently, I’ve made it part of my routine to read others’ blog posts every Sunday night (and Monday morning possibly) when I get my…
Inner Child Therapy: Working with the father and mother roles
Sessions number two and three from my Working with the Inner Child therapy were about getting into the role of the father and the mother and voicing everything that comes through: their words, messages, lessons, ways of punishment and rewarding, etc. In the session when I had to “be” my father I could barely find any words he had said to me when I was young. I was remembering messages from older years very clearly but I couldn’t get back to the early years of my childhood. During the session, feeling my inner child, I felt distance at first. Like my dad wanted to say something but he kept it inside,…
Forgiveness letter to myself
I forgive myself for neglecting and abusing my body. I forgive myself for rejecting myself. I forgive myself for abandoning myself. I forgive myself for treating my body with disgust. I forgive myself for shaming my body image. I forgive myself for rejecting my sexuality. I forgive myself for not wanting to give myself love. I forgive myself for self-abusing through the wrong relationships. I forgive myself for not forgiving myself. I forgive myself for making the wrong choices. I forgive myself for the self-destruction I was practicing. I forgive myself for the harmful things I’ve done to myself. I forgive myself for wanting to kill myself. I forgive myself…
